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I met up with Joey in a little dine house beside the beach
He wanted to talk about us.
Why he broke up with me,
But months ago I already knew
His Friend Daniel told me..
Yet I stayed and listened to him.
He told me he didn't want to see me cry when he goes to Europe.
"Joey, you know how much I've loved you right,
I don't care where
you live as long as we'd we together..
yes I'd cry the day you
Leave and the day after because I miss you,
I could handle that,
You knew the only thing I couldn't handle right is that we break up
But we did, you broke my heart and it shattered in pieces
I thought I couldn't fix". - as I said
As we speak I could feel a serious atmosphere surrounding me.
He said he was sorry , that he really was.
He asked me for another chance.
I knew what my answer was but
Ryan suddenly popped in my head.
There's always something that holds me back, and I know there is
Always a reason why things are meant to happen.
But it's just taking your c
As the days pass by, I feel like there's something missing in my life
I know I have my whole life ahead of me to complete those missing pieces.
And Joey was one of those pieces that went missing,
But now his just this guy from my past.
And the father of Spencer's baby, theres a possible
Chance we'd met again someday, when that one day
Comes I can look straight through his eyes
Happy with my life, I don't care who am with
I know I want to be with Ryan but It's my past that's hunting me
And keeping me from confessing my feelings for him.
With the fact that Ryan used to like me, does that really
One day I don't want to regret not telling him that he was the first guy
I actually fell in love with.
Am just afraid that he'd take it the wrong way like or sound like
Am some in love obsess freak.
Love at first sight perhaps who knows
Another day has passed and I still didn't had the courage to say anything.
I thought if I take the right time to tell him.
Was just a friendly love [that's why I thought]
-the day of going to Ariana's parent beach house-
We were on our way on the beach house
Ryan was sitting beside, I couldn't help but look at his face
I could stare at him all day long,
Then I realize what am doing is it right ?
I had a feeling I could fall for him all over again.
But right now is it just a lust,
because a part of me still loves
Joey and still thinks about him.
We stopped over a Motel cause its getting dark.
And we're not one bit close to the beach house
As everyone was getting rest.
I stayed up and sat in the balcony
For some reason I don't know why Ryan was also up
He came up to me and asked if I was still inlove with Joey
I replied and said I very confuse, I don't know what to do
Ryan told me he had something to confess to me.
That he liked me but he didn't know how to tell it to me
I was going to tell him my feelings
for him even though I wasn't sure of
Telling it to him.
But then before I could ev
As days past since me and Brad meet,
We've exchange numbers but never haven't
talked to each other since then,
One Monday after noon, my heart raced fast
I suddenly thought about Ryan
I thought of calling him but as soon I a dial
Spencer came in and invited to go with her
It was rather strange she came in my house and talked to me
Because I almost lost her as a friend we had a little fight
Okay maybe not a little fight it was a big one..
But that's not what am going to talk about
Spencer is pregnant and she didn't know who
Else to tell, and Joey was the father of the child
For a moment I stopped thinking about everything
Because I couldn't accept the fact that the guy I seriously loved
Cheated on me and with one of my friend
And now she's pregnant.
I called Aria and asked her if I could stay over,
As my tears fall I keep telling myself
Why am I still crying my heart out
Is it because my the guy I love cheated on me and
Got one of my close friends pregnant
Or is it bec
And when ever we meet i pretend i don't like him.
he was the reason I want to be a better person
His all i think about.
but just when i came to know he likes another girl
my heart shattered into pieces,
I tried to stopped liking him
tried to date some other guy
I met a guy in my class
his names Joey, His a really nice guy but his not Ryan
But few months later I've fallen for Joey
What can I say I like guys who plays Guitar.
Joey was my first serious relationship
other was just a fling.
And for a while I forgot Ryan
What Joey and I had was real, But its not how I feel about Ryan
Joey had to leave and study back in Europe.
He said it was best if we just break up
because he can't watch me cry when he leaves
so his gonna let me go.
Whats tougher letting go of someone who
cared and loved you or wait till everything gets better?
Ofcourse he chose letting me go and fell apart.
I cried for months because I really did feel for him.
I haven't talked to Ryan for months
and haven't though
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